Dear Diary,
I have a confession to make - to Zaid Zali. I have to confess that I only commented twice in your blog. On both occasions, you guessed "dang" right. THUS, that makes the others, before my first comment, to NOT be me. You guessed "dang" wrong there. My Emo Emu Buddy, can we declare that you already lost the game the moment you started it? You already owe me ayam bakar, famos amos cookies, carrot cheese cake, and now, as my winning throphy, you have to get me delicious Cokelat as well. Dark Cokelat, ye! I hate milk Cokelat, too sweet; or white Cokelat, as I don't drink milk. Should be for the entire Legal Dept. And CEO's office too. That would be great! Why confess? Let's say, we need strategies to win! I'll stop at that. ; )
# Hajar : why confess if you are joyous in the solace of a harmless secret?
HI DIARY, IT'S ME AGAIN ...
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
SHE MEANT BUSINESS !!!
Dear Diary,
It's earthquake, tsunami, typhoon, hurricane, war, radiation ... That's the news we get to hear ever so often now. To add icing to the cake, there's also murder, suicide cases, rape, and what other gruesome crimes committed on daily basis, if not hourly. I suppose, if a green, lanky, wide-eyed alien from the outer world were to read the local newspaper, or happen to fly by a window in a UFO (*on a scouting mission to earth, that is!) and get a peek on the niteline news aired on tv, I think it will think twice over the idea of concurring earth. What a pathetic place to settle down! Even if we are not so much of having a slight worry about the catastrophe that happened in Japan, why, only recently Thailand was hit by a reasonably massive earthquake. That is weird. And that is close to home. Very close to home for that matter! I am worried. I think She is angry now. I think Mother Earth is really pissed off with all of us!
I just read, more or less, that whenever the dweller of a settlement continuosly commits acts that are forebidden by God, God will set a time and overturn the kingdom of the wrongdoers. Up side down. This is being repeated everywhere throughout the book that I read.
Judgement Day, itself, is knocking on our door, and do we realise that? Do we pull the curtain back and peek through our window to check who is at our door? I think it's time for us to holdback. Let's pause for a while and check ourselves out.
Let's try have an Earth Day do tomrorrow. Let's ponder for a moment upon God's words. Let's create awareness amongst us, amongst our children. Let's save the world now, and caution ourselves and avoid from being the source of the anger of Mother Earth. We wouldn't want to anger her further, would we? She's not kidding this time. She meant business!!!
It's earthquake, tsunami, typhoon, hurricane, war, radiation ... That's the news we get to hear ever so often now. To add icing to the cake, there's also murder, suicide cases, rape, and what other gruesome crimes committed on daily basis, if not hourly. I suppose, if a green, lanky, wide-eyed alien from the outer world were to read the local newspaper, or happen to fly by a window in a UFO (*on a scouting mission to earth, that is!) and get a peek on the niteline news aired on tv, I think it will think twice over the idea of concurring earth. What a pathetic place to settle down! Even if we are not so much of having a slight worry about the catastrophe that happened in Japan, why, only recently Thailand was hit by a reasonably massive earthquake. That is weird. And that is close to home. Very close to home for that matter! I am worried. I think She is angry now. I think Mother Earth is really pissed off with all of us!
I just read, more or less, that whenever the dweller of a settlement continuosly commits acts that are forebidden by God, God will set a time and overturn the kingdom of the wrongdoers. Up side down. This is being repeated everywhere throughout the book that I read.
Judgement Day, itself, is knocking on our door, and do we realise that? Do we pull the curtain back and peek through our window to check who is at our door? I think it's time for us to holdback. Let's pause for a while and check ourselves out.
Let's try have an Earth Day do tomrorrow. Let's ponder for a moment upon God's words. Let's create awareness amongst us, amongst our children. Let's save the world now, and caution ourselves and avoid from being the source of the anger of Mother Earth. We wouldn't want to anger her further, would we? She's not kidding this time. She meant business!!!
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
I ADORE MI AMOR
Dear Diary,
I was recently struck by lightning. The kind that was blurted out from human's mouth, instead of the normal ones that came down from the sky. The after effect was still the same though - I was dead shock, and the electrifying feeling was there too, buzzing in my eardrums and then shutting down my entire system, though for a tiny moment. A split second. Off course I breath again afterwards. And smiling as usual. Nobody realized that the smile I gave, was the kind of smile that was given by a person who just survived, though rentung by a lightning strike! Wavy, and inbalance.
"Why did you let him go alone?"; "Men, you can never trust them!"; "You know what, 4-years is very long"; "Aren't you worried? He's there all alone?"; "What are you doing here, should have been in London now!"; "Tak takut dia kawin lain ke?"; "Common! It's London!". To certain extream, my wise and forever-I-respect mentor, one day, went "If I were you, I would follow wherever he goes. I would have resigned. 4 years is very long and we don't know what will happen there. At your age, men are ...."... she ended that sentence and gave me a couple of slow, calculated nods and a very, very looongg.... shrewd...... meaningful look!!
Oucchhh! That, hurts... err...No..that tingles, and creepy at the same time!!
What can I say? Scared? Off course I am scared. London? Yes, it is very fashionable to have the whole family there. I can envision myself wearing thick stylo winter clothing, sitting on a bench by the park, sipping steaming coffee, enjoying the misty white cool, snowy surrounding at the St. James's park, watching the squirrels, pelicans and the swans in the lake. If I am lucky, perhaps I can even bump into Prince Charles and Camilla like I did the last time I was there!
Between reality and fantasy, between clinging and letting go, between love and jealousy, how can I say it?
I guess, I just trust him. I have loads, and loads, and loads, of trust in him. And I need to hang on to it for so many years to come. Threats and fear of the unknown will quiver that feeling away. And I can't afford that.
Life, as we delve deeper into it, comes along with it, demanding responsibilities and consideration for others. Not only for me, but also for the betterment of the entire family. Not only for now, not only for the coming 4 years, but also for times long, long way after that. I pray for God's protection, for me, for him and for the entire family, to be away from harm, away from sadness and sorrow.
To my friends and my dear ones, thanks for asking. Thanks for worrying. I know you mean no harm. I know you don't mean to shake my trusts away. I trust him still and always, will be. I adore mi amor.
I was recently struck by lightning. The kind that was blurted out from human's mouth, instead of the normal ones that came down from the sky. The after effect was still the same though - I was dead shock, and the electrifying feeling was there too, buzzing in my eardrums and then shutting down my entire system, though for a tiny moment. A split second. Off course I breath again afterwards. And smiling as usual. Nobody realized that the smile I gave, was the kind of smile that was given by a person who just survived, though rentung by a lightning strike! Wavy, and inbalance.
"Why did you let him go alone?"; "Men, you can never trust them!"; "You know what, 4-years is very long"; "Aren't you worried? He's there all alone?"; "What are you doing here, should have been in London now!"; "Tak takut dia kawin lain ke?"; "Common! It's London!". To certain extream, my wise and forever-I-respect mentor, one day, went "If I were you, I would follow wherever he goes. I would have resigned. 4 years is very long and we don't know what will happen there. At your age, men are ...."... she ended that sentence and gave me a couple of slow, calculated nods and a very, very looongg.... shrewd...... meaningful look!!
Oucchhh! That, hurts... err...No..that tingles, and creepy at the same time!!
What can I say? Scared? Off course I am scared. London? Yes, it is very fashionable to have the whole family there. I can envision myself wearing thick stylo winter clothing, sitting on a bench by the park, sipping steaming coffee, enjoying the misty white cool, snowy surrounding at the St. James's park, watching the squirrels, pelicans and the swans in the lake. If I am lucky, perhaps I can even bump into Prince Charles and Camilla like I did the last time I was there!
Between reality and fantasy, between clinging and letting go, between love and jealousy, how can I say it?
I guess, I just trust him. I have loads, and loads, and loads, of trust in him. And I need to hang on to it for so many years to come. Threats and fear of the unknown will quiver that feeling away. And I can't afford that.
Life, as we delve deeper into it, comes along with it, demanding responsibilities and consideration for others. Not only for me, but also for the betterment of the entire family. Not only for now, not only for the coming 4 years, but also for times long, long way after that. I pray for God's protection, for me, for him and for the entire family, to be away from harm, away from sadness and sorrow.
To my friends and my dear ones, thanks for asking. Thanks for worrying. I know you mean no harm. I know you don't mean to shake my trusts away. I trust him still and always, will be. I adore mi amor.
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