MY BALANCE-OF-2011 PLAN

Dear Diary,
Soon it will be PPA time, and what I did as against to what I have planned to do, will be weighted again. When "life" kind of abandoned me, I plan to make myself busy. These are my plans in 2011 and let's see how far I've met my KPI.

1. To paint Ziad's room. Status : we are stil undecided what color to paint. Ziad wants green (he's in Green schoolhouse) and Aish, naturally wants pink and purple. And I want blue. Since there are only 4 walls in the room, I am still wondering if painting all different colors to every 1 wall will be a good idea.
2. To change the bathroom door. Status : I have given ayah RM500 to change the door. His update was "nanti lah... ayah dah pakai duit tu." Boleh?
3. To redesign Pandan Alley's tv area. Status : I have several designs and sketches. In my head.
4. To make the Bukit Mahkota house a holiday home. Status : I haven't even got time to pay it's quit rent. Dear Majlis Daerah Kajang, please don't seize my house. My dear industrious darling is far far away. And I am bizzzie.
5. To stay healthy. Status : Yeah, I have even entered a marathon "formally" (though I have to withdrew myself to accompany Aish. Truth : I am just plain worry that I'll be Malaysian last chicky runner and appear in the news as the "fainted participant"). Thanks for inviting ZZ! We look forward for more!

6. To spend lunch hour at office surau. Status : Failed to date, as since Hajar left, I have been glued to my seat since morning till very late afternoon. Stopping just enough for zuhur and asar prayers only. Don't blame me, ok.
7. To send Ziad and Zarith for their mengaji lesson. Status : Yeah. Ziad is enrolled with Ustaz Ibrahim now. Aish, still tidak diterima masuk kelas lagi. Maybe next year.
8. To re-commence swimming lesson for Ziad and Zarith (where I, will berenang-renang di tepian). Status : every day in the week's 7 days for the kids are pretty occupied already. Will try again post Ramadhan.
9. To present a Paper in a Conference. Status : I think yeah. Paper on EPCC to lawyers in a mini-conference in Bangi EQ. Will save for "major-conference" next year lah.
10. To visit O' My Darling every now and then. Status : Yeah. This is a good KPI. Insya Allah, I will be making it twice to UK this year. Praying that Allah will murahkan rezeki and sihat for the long trips with kiddos.
11. To obtain my Cosec professional license. Status : Haiiyaa...!


All in all, I will be lucky if I don't get an M3. Urghh..

CAME BUT FOR FRIENDSHIP, AND TOOK AWAY LOVE

Dear Diary,

Whatever that means. To some. But to me, wrongly or rightly interpreted, it means something deep. You come to a place with false hope. With hatred perhaps. With longing to return to where you came from. You despise the unfamiliarity. You fear for what lies beneath. You decided to play by the surface. But as time goes by, bit by bit, you tend to adapt. You tend to accept. You blend and you open up. You go deep. Then deeper. Then deepest. Then you realised, that oh.. it's not that bad. You like. Then you love. Then you can't do without. But then, sadly, boom!!. It's time to say good bye. Suddenly you feel reluctant to leave behind. What you first fear. What you first despise. You left, and adapt, and like, and then love again. And the cycle starts over and over and over again. I call it life. I call it nature. I think it's painful sometimes. I think it's a must most of the times. Fearing and hating to go. Then fearing and hating to leave. Intending not to know, but ended up filled with many, many great memories.